I still have dreams of you.
Are you trying to send me a message?
I kept asking you....trying to clear my doubts...
But you....you just smiled...
You kept trying to stay by my side even though i kept pushing you away...

Why am i still having feelings for you even though its so long...
I ought to be happy that you are attached...
I ought to be thinking of moving on...
I ought to be preparing myself for Aussie...

But why are you constantly appearing in front of me?
Why is it that i can't forget you totally...
Why can't i just move on knowing there's no more between us...
Why can't i stop being cruel to myself and holding on to the past...

Can you tell me why for once? And stop smiling in our dreams?

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