Ok....you've been neglected once again =x. Its not that i have nothing to write...its that there's so many things that have happened that i don't even know where to start off from. Hmmm...ok so here goes nothing!

1. The week when good friday and easter goes together...

So our company had a local event. Basically what we needed to do was to "volunteer" ourselves to "run" for the company. Every 1km covered will contribute $1 to building a school in the Ivory Coast for the village there. Ok so this didn't sound like a big deal right? After all most people who gladly volunteer and get out of the office for a breather. So we were sent to Sembawang Park where we begin the "run". Ok so most of us walked while some others ran. During the entire run, William was the camera guy and ya many cam-whoring going on but i don't have the luxury to do the uploads here. There was buffet, pool and karaoke going on! Wow wee~ But just when i was about to start singing my song, Doreen told me that we have to go, course her hubby offered to pick her up =) and she offered to send me to the MRT interchange where i took cab thereafter. OMG THE CAB FARE WAS HORRENDOUS! IT WAS ABOUT $25!!! o.O , gone were the days of reckless waving and lifting of the cab when you are so freaking lazy to walk...sigh i have to be more "thrifty" from now on.

After a quick shower, i headed down to Vivocity to meet up with my family for "dinner" apparently i had supper there which was the oyster mee sua (o-a mee sua). Its not that bad considering that the gravy was thick. I rewarded myself for the "run" that day. I guess it wouldn't hurt to eat some high cholesterol seafood once a while?

So what exactly did i do for Good Friday? Well i basically stayed at home to Silk~ Apparently i have a newfound love for this game after adding the European race with many interesting "job". I apparently chose Bard which was like a Buff + Range + Mag + Int character. She uses Music to fight. Interesting right?! Weapon of attack was the Harp. Which is so interesting.

Sunday was Adel jie's Baptism day together with her sister at St Joseph's Catholic Church which is a Bugis. Started off at 12.10 pm till about 3 pm and apparently for my brother and i, its the first time we have been to a catholic church. So we definitely felt a little weird. Angie, Alan and Adel Jie's mum were there to grace the occasion. There were SO MANY PEOPLE and the church was rather stuffy as it was quite a humid afternoon. But nonetheless the event was a success. And after that we went for lunch and then headed home.

Ok this is what happened that week as far as i can recall.

So this will make up for the forgetfulness of your beloved owner =)

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Its quite long from what i know...since i last saw you...
As much as i want to know how you're doing, i realised i have no courage to ask you that.
Its surprising how a dream, can make you realise so many things.

I haven't forgotten about you. Even though its been so long, so so long.
I've tried to move on, to do and meet other people.
But no one comes close to you.

You seemed happy in the dream. And it seemed as though it was those happy memories and days that we had spent together. I had so many questions to ask you. But you didn't say a word. But just brought me to the places that we go to. And knowing that you're the only one beside me. I felt relieved even though i know it's not what it seems in reality.

Your smile, melted every single doubt i had.
Your caring attitude, finally gave me the security that i have yearned for so long.
I just wanted to stay in your embrace, for as long as i can remember, for as long as i can.
Your warmth, i have forgotten how it had felt.

But just as dreams end, your face started to fade.
And...i found myself...lonelier than ever...
I don't even know if i want to tell you i'm leaving...

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Ok...so finally i realised that i have already had my amount deducted from my account to my Aussie account. Ok the feeling is seriously miserable. About $700+ Sing dollar has been transferred. =(

And now i am facing the adversity of having to try to save up to my minimum expected level before i even leave to Aussie. zzzzz Goddamnitmotherfucker.... Anyway, I have completed 2 books "fervently" which is Rich Dad, Poor Dad and The Richest Man in Babylon. Now i am reading up on Beating the Street and followed by a biz journal that i have bought but yet to read yet.

I have already learnt and finally realised what my mum has been trying so hard to instill in me. Ok i mean now at age 20 after finally waking up from my foolery in the teenage world had i woken up. Its still not too late. I believe. But i will be following what i think is right. It pays to plan and think about my future now that i'm 1 year closer to "my supposed freedom".

I'm planning to earn more and build my assets column. I've learnt so much and have opened my views on the world. It's true like what someone used to tell me and i have to thank him for it and how i realised what he really tried to do for me back then: "Knowledge is abundant everywhere, its just whether you are willing to learn and appreciate it and use it to your advantage."

Yes, i really have to thank him for this teaching.

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Recently, i'm very motivated to plan for my future and my retirement. You must be thinking, you're kidding right? You're only 20 and you think about retiring? Sheesh!

But hey....its true. I really do think about retiring and "not working so hard for the boss and company till i'm old and grey". Don't get me wrong, i am still studying on the subject of my interest but i'm also thinking about my future. Can my usual working salary support and be able to provide me throughout till i'm say 40?

If you're given an option to use $10 000, what would you do? For me, This amount can be used for investments, things i like and i know will grow. Its time to be financially self-sufficient and reliant. I have also realised that the 8-5 job is seriously not my cup of tea, so what do i do after i seriously have nothing to do?

This is a good time to discipline and grow =)

[Target: 35]
See you at the top! =)

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Ok...i'm really very very excited about going to aussie...nothing much at work today because boss has to fly to HK and China immediately to settle some outstanding issues, office is very quiet because i'm the only one in...Edward and Andy are on leave. But i mean its ok since i have the whole college and dept to myself...i can surf and blog and do whatever at my own time and pace. I've melted some chocolate to temper...but i'm really very very lazy. But i might be doing some later on in the afternoon, obviously i have to see my mood.

Spoke to yeany last night, and i realised i have to bring my lab coat and my safety goggles, most probably i will bring back my current barry-callebaut lab coat hehehe...and i have to get safety goggles from some hardware store. She told me to bring very very thick clothing and bring more than 1 thick blanket; recently my god-sis has just given me a silk blanket...according to yeany its just not enough o.O omg... i'm so afraid of cold areas...but i love winter...-.-

Anyway, accomodation wise i'll most probably be staying with the 3 guys already =/ but i'm not sure how it'll turn out to be...sigh...i realised i have to really really save up and buy all the barangs here to bring there...just daily necessities alone can drive me crazy...what to do...i'm a girl =(

But i can't wait to go aussie...i will most likely have to pack some of my notes tomorrow and arrange accordingly, what i want to bring to aussie and at the same time read through a bit...so that i have a rough idea of what i will be studying... Apparantly the course structure is almost the same, just that i have to get used to their education system, which is DEFINITELY different from Spore, in terms of lectures alone, i think its enough to kill you. Hmmm now i need to find books as well, but i'll see how it goes, maybe i can lend it from Yeany first.

Ah...i really can't wait to stay in aussie and study and experience the life there. It may seem i'm really so heartless like i am basking in my enthusiasm to study rather than thinking about how my family is feeling. I don't know but i really want to study like NOW. After working for a while, you'll realise that studying is so much more relaxed and less political than at work. I finally appreciate school, ya it took me like 20 years to realise that. And all the while i was thinking working would be less stressful than school, i was so fucking wrong.

Hahahaha. Meeting Kw later, to collect my a maths text, i'll also be using the scarf that he has given me...finally it can be put to good use hahaha...=)

Things to buy are a many...YES A MANY...

1.) Winter wear
2.) Jeans
3.) Shoes / boots
4.) Contact lens solution / new specs / Lasik (the best option)
5.) Toiletries
6.) Ladies stuff
7.) Stationary

These are the approximate things that i have to get...=/ wonder how can i get all these at less than 2k omg...crazy... Anyhow i am so excited hahahaha

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Ok ok...on a lighter note, today was a half day...and i managed to complete my things on time. But now the problem is...i have to take another 1 day leave next week! My boss is DEFINITELY going to be suspicious...apparantly my mum doesn't think thats the case...tsk...

So we had lunch and met up with my mum's colleague Yusheng. Talked about life in UNSW, accomodation, banking stuff and etc. The interesting part i think is the accomodation...i may have to stay with 3 guys =/ so i'm not sure how things would happen. I mean i don't mind...but my mum and god-sis wanted me to consider...but i'm just lazy =x hahaha...just want to find a place soon and stay there so that i can study...goddamnit! but then again...its so hard...hahaha....we'll see how it goes....meanwhile he kept telling me and assuring me that it will be way way fun there...and that i will enjoy myself...he's kinda brotherly...and ya by default i have a guardian already zzz...and my mum and god-sis thinks that he's a reliable and trustworthy person so we'll see how it goes ya...

And another side note...these 3 guys don't drink and smoke...they just watch soccer =/ ok so that's a relieve? =/

You come and go in my life... you're really an adhoc bf. Just that i don't mention about it.
Whenever you msg me, saying we should meet up. We always get into another emotional level.
Sometimes i tell myself to just enjoy the moment. And let the rest go for just a little while. To let me indulge in this little happiness.

When you go. I can't stop thinking about you. Hoping to get to talk to you soon. But i know its impossible. And soon, i'll forget all about you. And i won't attempt to make any single contacts with you. I won't. And then i'll forget about you. Until your next call or msg. We are so on and off. Just like a fling. Psychologically, i can take it. Emotionally i can't. But what can i say?

I wanted somethings like that. Now, i have to learn to let you go. And go back to the usual pace again. I cried again. After so long. After so so long. Does this show that i do have feelings for you?
I really wished i could stay happy. But its so hard. I think its because i love to play and fool around that i got myself always in this kind of situation. I want you to come to me. I always wanted you to.