Argh 3 more agonizing days left...I'll have my verdict on the 3rd of June...1.27.17am...i really hope i can convince the guy to sell the 2 CDs to me...and that it is below $300...sigh...let's hope and pray ok?

I really want those CDs! Jia you jia you! we can get it! =p

Labels: Battle for the LE OSTs

Recently...i've been searching for OSTs...FF8 Original 1st Print, Limited Edition...but at the same time i found th FF10 Original 1st Print, Limited Edition too...hmmm now i am bidding for this 2 CDs...and yeah...i don't know if i wanna let him know about this CD? Actually the main CD i wanted was FF8...but i got FF10 too because i did play that game before...so hmmm he's looking for it too...i am considering getting for him first...then let him pay me back or something if he wants it...

Well let's wait and see if i can get the 2 CDs first...

Labels: Final Fantasy OSTs

It's been a while since i could find someone who likes the same thing as me...and that he's really nice and helpful to advice me on what to get and all...it's a really nice feeling...i don't mind having a nice friend like him...just that...i wonder if its a little awkward to ask him that...haha...

Well, after much deliberation...i'm thinking of getting the FF8 Original OST... although i missed the boat on the first print...i guess its ok...since i love FF8 alot...i don't mind getting the second print... =)

Nowadays i just like to wait for his PMs...and wonder what will he advice me next...because apparantly...i'm also looking out for first prints which are very rare...and both of us want to get our hands on it...so hmm...that's the bad part of it... well either way...i'm quite happy that i managed to find someone with the same interest as me...and its funny how he even went all out to try playing ace attorney just because i told him i love that game a lot...and now i find myself beginning to wanna try out ff12 revenant wings too...heh...its amazing how this kinda things happen...just through mere words...

Labels: Little happiness

"Are you H?"
"Yes..."
"Why...why are you here?"
"..."

You came to me...I was so shocked..and I didn't know what to say...
Then you just hugged me...and said...I'm sorry
I cried...I cried so hard that I don't know what else to say.
But the next thing I know that person was switched. It was someone else.

I couldn't stop crying even when I was awake. Are you trying to tell me something again?
Is it really my imagination that kept you alive until now? Or is it you're really trying to tell me something? Or is it because I just can't forget about you?

Why am I still crying about what happened? Why am I still crying about you and me?
I miss you....I miss you so much....but what's the point when at the end of the day I will not talk to you anymore...

We're just back to strangers again...

Labels: Letters to "H"

Yeah...i've already tendered my resignation...and my last day is on the 11th...i have agreed to help out till then...although it will really be tiring on my part...i guess i don't really have a choice huh...
I will most likely be flying off on the 16th...seriously...i don't really feel like seeing anyone before i really leave...i don't want to make it seem that i will be gone for good...it's weird...i don't know why...

Sometimes...when you thought that some things are just beginning to surface...maybe friendships, maybe relationships, maybe work...you'll not hold so much grudge or past feelings that have been affixed to them in the past...somehow...the same situation will really look different after this point of time in my life...

I don't hate the people who caused so much shit in my life anymore, i don't bother about all the troubles that i have been having in the past, i don't regard any future problems undermining my future...i somehow...see things in a much clearer light...

Maybe its really called "letting go"....forgiving yourself of all the past hurt, torture, remorse and failures that you keep blaming yourself and refuse to let go...and soon it clings onto your very little empty space...and manifests into a parasite...that never fails to leech out all the love, hope and anticipation that you once had.

It's been a while....and i should learn to forgive myself...after all the things that have happened. I can well only blame myself, but i shouldn't sulk on it for so long...apparantly...i've been dragging this guilt for 3-4 years... and even though i kept thinking that i have moved it...i think subconsciously i am still harbouring this guilt in me...

It's not that i can't forgive myself...its that i can't bring myself to forgive myself. It's like its already done, the damage is there. Whether i try to salvage or not, it's a permanent scar. I am deeply troubled by it, but yet i have to move on and deal with it. If not i can't get on in life, i will find life tiresome and i will not be able to keep on going.

I haven't been able to come up with a good reason how i should forgive myself and move on. Even though sometimes i did try to make it up to myself, it's just sometimes not working. I wonder if i can forgive myself someday for this...i really hope...

Labels: random rants

I felt something very different...although i'm numb...i still give myself the benefit of a doubt...
I have been...rather close...maybe a little too close to someone...someone i may not even know that well...I don't know...if i should continue to stay as the way i am...or just be open to changes...

I don't want to get through anything like that all over again...please don't....

Labels: random rants

Yup....was awake very early to prepare the meat and to cut some of the kimchi... overall it was very tiring and hectic. When we reached, it was already 9.30am, went to register and was met up with Miss Leong, Miss Toh, Dr Tay...and all of them spoke to me about Uni of Massey and hoping that i will stay and do my studies here. =) But i think its pretty obvious i'll be leaving...

Well..the cooking competition was intense, when we found out that we had to compete with 11 other teams...most of them with their parents or grandparents who are very very experienced in the kitchen...as compared to Tommy and I....who hardly step in unless we need to =/

So our table was right in front of the spectators...we had to face the media...and people coming to our tables constantly and we having to entertain them....there were people from the media, press and our very own students....all hoping to get a piece what we were doing...actually everyone was curious about our dish, which was rice balls with a fusion of everything...

We had a tasting session, and yes...we were so nervous when we noticed that the table was filled with very nice looking, delectable...and very innovative dishes....and then i thought...we were done for...until one of the judges came over...and asked my brother..."Hey are you the group who did the rice balls?" And my brother was like "Yeah...(shit...)"...and he said "Oh wanna congratulate you first...well done"... My bro and i were like (What the fuck are you kidding me?)....

And guess what....9 Merit awards were given out to people who did the very elaborate and nice looking dishes...including the Paiti...and others....We were holding on to our seat and we were so nervous...we didn't expect to make it out of the merit award range...

"And now for the top 3 prizes...." Miss Leong spoke. "These are 2 of my Food Students...and they have won themselves the most delicious meal award!...they are TOMMY AND TAMMIE!"

(OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG...!)

Hahaha...and when they asked us what is the name of the dish...my brother answered..."Reunion Rice Balls"...and they were so happy for us....my mum was very happy and shocked too...hehehe...what a memorable day...and it was the best day i've had for so long....=)

Hehehehe....for once...i'm so proud of myself and my brother hehehe....

"But still...i wished you were there to see me....=) i really did..."

Labels: Most Delicious Achievement